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January 07, 2009



You are an awesome mom, baby.


Ditto. It takes tremendous courage to do what you're doing, to be so present to E through all of this. I'm standing with you today, in my dansko clogs, holding you both in my heart.


I'm just sobbing reading this. My 4 year old still talks some about when Daddy lived with us but it's less and less frequent and the memories are less clear these days. My 2 year old I'm sure doesn't remember much if anything before the split. I'm kind of torn about that. I don't want them to remember how bad it was when we were all together, but at least if they do recognize how bad it was, then they understand why we had to make the choices we made. I like the idea of writing out your story with Lil E. You are an amazing mom and you're doing a wonderful job for your little boy.

Jessica Ashley (Sassafrass)

I feel so blessed to feel the love and support of so many women here -- thank you. That raw power lifts me up every single day, especially on the big days.

And I also feel lucky to have the wisdom and cheers and hugs of parents who've been through this ugliness or are going through it. So for that, Wondermom and Li-Wen, thank you and MWAH!

allison Bescak

Jess....thanks for sharing. Itwas written so beautifully. Love ya, WooWoo


owww, heart. tough stuff amiga


this is genius, and you will go down in the annals of most amazing moms. Through your own heartbreak, you have navigated Lil E to a safe shore. Bravo!

Amy Nathan

I'm so glad I didn't wear mascara today.


I know you told me a long time ago that there wasn't an award at the end of the year for best mother. BUT, if there was you would take it every year!!! you are amazing! Love you!


WOW! So awesome for you to do this for him, Jessica!


Wow, gives me chills, what a great mom you are! He will remember doing this forever!


What a lovely boy you have there.

At some point your son is going to believe you can stop loving him like you stopped loving his dad, and I want you to practice saying this, "there is nothing you can do to make me stop loving you." Just repeat it over and over no matter how bad things get.

I wish for you all good things.

Bill Locklin

It should be pointed out that you are truly a divorced mom - not a single mom. Young Ms. Palin is a single mom - never married to the father of her child. You still have the advantage of your son (his age?) being involved with his father, and knowing who his father is. Ms. Palin's may or may not be involved with the father from here on out. She will be in the most disastrous type of situation - the one that produces overwhelming numbers of school drop-outs, delinquents, convicted and jailed prisoners, drug abusers, alcoholics, and spousal abusers. She will be thankful that she has the parents that she does, because they will be highly involved with their grandchild and will provide the child with an environment and example that the single mother cannot provide alone.

Danai Burns

Wow Mr Locklin that takes some serious nerve. I am a single mom. I was married to my son's father. He abducted my son at a very young age and has not seen him by his own accord since he was less than 2. I have a masters degree and I am putting myself through a PhD program currently. My family is 1800 miles away and I raise an autistic son alone without the benefit of child support. My son will not be one of the statiscal disasters you speak of, not because my parents have done my job but because I have. Every day, I, and millions of moms just like me, teach our children the values and discipline needed to become productive citzens of the world. Criminals, addicts, and abusers come from 2 parent famiies too.

Donna B,

This is a beautiful story. Thanks.

I signed my stip agreement 5 weeks ago and I am trying to sort it all out. I am encouraged to know I am in such good company as a single mom. My ex has been abusive and is pulling out all the stops to continue by not paying, etc. But we will hang in, I know we can do it when I see the tremendous strength of character here. And Mr. L. isn't worth our breath but I agree with your comments Danai.


Well, I must say that the strong will survive. Even though the hearts both young and old grow cold with time, As the mind forces itself to forget the mistakes it cannot understand. The resultant action of broken recreation breads a darkness that must be subdued by an empty yet open universe of possbility. Yet will a heart bleed eternal. For one cannot bleed without injury and cannot hope but for recovery. To recover is to survive to contine bleeding is to die.


I am a divorced mom/single mom. My kids are growing up and are now 14, 17, and 19. For the record, satistics DO NOT prove that paternal involvement is helpful in the outcome of childrearing. Why is this? It is because the involvement of "Dad" also often means more "issues", less stability. We decided long ago that our kids would not be torn back and forth at the whim of the adult world. We gave them a stable world that was full of love and the same bed each night.

Sadly, we are a nation who looks upon children with the wisdom of Solomon. We try to be "fair" to the grownups while we split the children in two. How often have you woken up in a motel room and had a disjointed moment where you didn't remember how you got there? This is a constant for kids of divorce.

Satistically if Bristol is able to provide a STABLE home for her son; one where there are consistent rules, the same bed to sleep in each night, routine, chores and a sense of belonging he will likely be fine. She sure should go to school, educate herself and spend every moment she can with that precious life.

We don't like it, but the truth hurts. Our insistence on "fairness" (to the adults) has cost kids a sense of home. Huge price to pay.


Its been 9 years for me, the pain and loss of blessings haunt me. If only people knew now what we didnt know then, nothing gets fixed, oh you put on your happy face and find new love, but the seeds of love, the family, are like chaff in the wind, never the same.............Divorce sucks...period


Your article made me cry. I'm on the father side of this and your family of three made me remember those times fondly from my own life before things went completely crazy. And I remember it as well from your sons perspective. I had a dream for years that my mother and father took me and my brother to the snow and it was the best time ever and everyone was happy. I didn't know until my 20's that we never went to any snow as a family.


Heather---children benefit from having a male role model in their lives. Having their dad is not a bad thing if said dad is a real man and understands children are not pawns for his own ego. Just like some women should.


doobie, you're absolutely right.


Michael, What is a real man to you...


i am choked up. my fiance and i just broke up, with two babies under two, there will come a day when we will tell our boys why mommy and daddy are not together anymore and because of this you gave me the strength i needed.


I am just beginning to walk down this path...upset and shamed with myself for choosing poorly when it comes to a partner. Blessed and grateful that our union gave me my beautiful daughter. Mad as he__ for his immaturity, inability, and unwillingness to be a real man and father. Less angry about his shortcomings as a husband...because in the end it comes down to what she has, is going to get, and will never have. I have to be able to HELP HER walk through the loss and be better than OK. I accidentaly stumbled across this piece...,funny thing God's timing. Thank you ladies...God bless!!!

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